I no longer bothered or cared what thoughts came, it did not matter, let my excess adrenalin make me think this way at times, its fine, was my attitude.

I used to smile at how silly they were at times, anxiety play your tricks if you must I no longer care.

The way to rid yourself of them is to allow them to be there, not to rid yourself of them, worry why you have them.

I hope there is something there for people to relate to.

Paul For more information and help, visit my main site For more information about my book ‘At last a life’ visit entry was posted on Sunday, February 24th, 2008 at pm and is filed under Obsessive thoughts.

They wont go overnight, in my case they came less often and with less force.

I had a great insight into this when I used to go for a long 1 hour run.

The original question was……Paul, could you please do a post regarding obsessive thought cycles.

Mine are fear of dying, fear of hurting someone physically or sexually, all the usual, fear of self harm/suicide, ITS CRIPPLING MATE and my last symptom to go.

It’s like I have to push the words out to express myself. It’s embarrassing, yet I can’t control this a lot of the time. Anyway, I made this drawing after the young woman who was my companion quit, and the woman who was involved with my case, the cognitive remediation counselor, recommended I go on Caring Kind’s website and look for another home health aide/companion who has training with Alzheimer’s people and is trained in dementia care.